Reality

It's something that never leaves my mind. A voice in my head that never goes away. It makes me afraid, really afraid. It makes me angry, isolated, insane. It lies to me. I try to run away from it, but it finds me again. I thought it would make me happier, but it ruined everything. It completely changed my life. It completely changed me. I don't think I'll ever be the same again. Will it go away? Will I have to make it go away with what little control I have left? And will it find it's way back again? I need to make it go away, but I just can't. I try. A lot. But somedays I don't try as much. Somedays I give in. But lately I've been trying harder. I need this to go away. I never want to remember this. I want to wake up one morning with no memory of this whatsoever. But unfortunately, the memories will always be vivid. The thoughts will always find their way back.

I am left alone to fight against this.
And I might be fighting it for the rest of my life.