Alright, so whoever came up with the statement "time heals all wounds" must have seriously not known what they were talking about. That statement is such a lie. Time definitely does not heal all wounds. No matter how much time passes by, you'll always have those memories, those thoughts... They'll keep haunting you. They've haunted me for longer than I can say, and they'll haunt me for the rest of my life.
I wish more than anything that I can erase those memories...But unfortunately that's not going to happen. I can't control the thoughts that enter my head either. So now what? I'm not sure. I guess I'll just have to keep dealing with it; keep having nights like this where the negative thoughts are present more than ever, and it's just slightly more than I can handle. But I'm used to it by now, I think.
It's just this continuous cycle, and there's no way out.
quote from my favourite episode of House MD
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Dr. House: That's what people say, it's not true. Doing things changes things. Not doing things leaves things exactly as they were.
see the problem is that the best time can do for you is make you forget. except even then, the memory does remain, bubbling below the surface in your subconscious, eating away inside you.
so the problem is that you can't make it as if things never happened - and to attempt to is almost futile.
the only answer, then, is to seek some sort of resolution inside yourself - to be at peace with the fact that the past did happen - but that it is in the past. "then" is not "now" - and will never be so again.
Very true. I'll have to remember that.
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